Saturday, March 28, 2009
=( blogg-ed at 11:52 PM
Problems problems.
Been shedding tears for the past consecutive days.
Each day is of different problems.
And, its the first time crying in this year 2009.
Im feeling very stressed.
On everything.
Each day seems to like a daze.
Was working at BoonLay today and there is this hiphop/bboy competition at Jurong Point.
Its really been a llllooooonnnngggg time since I dance.
Im really upset that I've stop doing it.
I've no choice.
I chosen work over dance.
Upcoming;
I'll be choosing studies over work.
If Im back to studies, I will have time to dance.
But I really like my job despite it sucks.
Im still looking forward to many things I can do in my job.
Though Im always labelled as "not-disciplined" by my boss.
Yes I am.
But, sometimes Im really too tired to work harder.
Juggling between so many problems and seeking to be the best I could.
Sad to say, nothing has been accomplished fine.
I hope to study, I hope to dance, I hope to stay in my job.
I hope to have TIME TIME TIME.
For a lot of other things.
I hope to have time to be at my own house too though bickers always happen at home :(
I want to have more time with Jav as both of our work is straining us to the max.
6 full day work a week,
1 off day.
At least once a week; have to go back to main office for training/meeting/clearing pending early in the morning like 8am.
Blah blah.
And I finish work 8pm/8pm+ each day.
Im upset I that being an officer whose core product is savings account,
I do not have access to open account for my customers.
This really sucks.
There goes my many funded account which I have to chase them away,
which means there goes my money and NUMBERS.
People who are not specialised mainly on my product are yet being more privileged than me.
What am I doing in my job then?
I can only fight.
I've plans which I can do better,
but its just stopping me.
I cannot help myself,
with the constraints I have.
Sometimes a hug will be just fine.
